crazy/addict

i easily get addicted on things i like; coffee, food, place, even friends. I have the same group of people I hang out with since I moved here in Cebu from Manila. I eat at the same carinderia since day one and I still like the same "utan bisaya",though I plan to move to another house until my contract expires.

i would admit that moving on or changing preference is a bit of a challenge for me.Oddly, despite my being ambitious, I am afraid to take on new roles, new challenges or new risk. I am comfortable staying in my zone.

so after 8 years and nearly 11 months in a relationship we have build and kept, I got a sudden burst to evaluate it! Am i questioning the status qou?

Sadly, I would admit I am.

When my partner left for the states for a greener pasture and to finally connect with some of his family members he has not seen for nearly, if not more than, a decade I was stunned. Not that I was not aware, but because I was afraid that one day, he would let things go as is without any hint of an effort to revive. He is skeptic that what we have is different from his parents. Not that I fault him for believing so since that was a reality, I just thought he could have been more positive about it!

For nearly three years now, I am wondering how he looks like. We have talked with cam just once when he has new colored hair ( that was cool.PINK!). He has not updated his pictures though he keep a blog I visited once in a while as a way of updating myself on things he's venturing into, on events he's enjoying and on plan's he is realizing!

He was my family! And while he has his family in the states, I have none! Though it is easy to think that your own country is a lot better, I wish I'm just a stone throw away from MD.

We used to argue on a lot of things!Even the simplest way, and we always have our own way to fix that!We would never sleep with our fight. Waking up every morning with him is wonderful and a morning kiss could just make my day brighter!

We used to enjoy the simplest of things together. SM is our wonderland. He likes malling and we converge in the viedeoke room. We like ice cream and karate kid or teriyake boy. But roasted chicken is just one of those heavenly delights. Ahh..we love the lemon grass chicken. We roast it ourselves with the help of ready to mix flavors!

We've been to break-ups!Twice! And it was the most painful break-ups I have had and good things we have patched things up!

I can go on counting and reminiscing the things we have shared and I would be lost in the counting process because we have a lot!

So why am I questioning the status qou?

Without a doubt, I was addicted to things we have shared and not doing it is like losing a dose of my own medicine!

I was addicted, and now I'm crazy!