i've never been hurt until yesterday

to keep quiet and resilient for 13 year did not make me any good.Maybe it just made my hopes and frustrations too high.

there's nothing as complicated as family and i'm sure that if everyone woud not agree, at least I would have the by end that yes, what hurt us most are the people we love most!

i value and love my parents and siblings in the most intangible and tangible ways. There's nothing that could compare or describe the dedication and support I have vowed to keep them from living the life they want. I have made ends met in my own discretion considering that they have not witness or at least notice it. Maybe, they thought I was strong as a bull or as knowledgeable as Einstein. I was hoping they could think that yes, I am human. I am not a vending machine that releases what they punched in and just replace it when I can't.

i earn my own damn stability and I thanked God for the person who have been there since time immemorial and the Divine Intervention who have guided me trod this path. If someone would throw a stone in my face, I never expected it to be my love ones. Surely, it made the matter worst.

I've never been so hurt until yesteday when all my love shattered and all that was left was a plea; to make me understand what faults I have done to deserve such judgement and treatment.

I am dying to know that despite the love and understanding I gave them for the last 13 years, why in a split second, I lost everything and they just throw it ll away.

Sadly, life has to go on even if inside I want it to stop!