Starting Over

Labor Day and I have nothing in my mind except you! I don't know exactly what prompted or led me to thinking of you since there's nothing that relates labor day to you beside you being an employee.
So I would try to recollect.
I woke up 6:00 AM today to catch up some work in the office. I lost my access to a database that I cannot put in all my observations using a different log-in. And so I waited until it was reset .As expected,work filed up and my compliance is at stake.
I was in hurry, trying to complete an impossible tasks within the limits of 5 hours. If I have to observed 18 people, in at least 5 minutes and at the same time coach them, I have to be very creative to meet all ends.
With much enthusiasm and a few minutes to spare, I open up messenger before I even start my observations. Your name pop-out up and I can't wait to answer your messages since I have been waiting for a week to get some news from you.
When the database pulled up, I forgot about it and what's left is you.
I was lost since the time you left and it was heightened by what had happened to me this past weeks. When I felt betrayed by my family, I was hoping you were here because I k ow that nothing comes between us. A bad day turns good so suddenly that I forgot what it's all about in your presence. Not that my heart numbs every moment in our communing time, but because we can talk anything and you always have a piece of mind to share. And so I was left thinking of you on those times that My heart was broken into pieces and my mind can think of any rationale behind all the events that happened last week. I lost the appetite and motivation to work until I realize that I was only making it worse. Thanks for that phone call a week ago. I felt that I know someone is behind me. Not that I need someone to pamper me, it's just good to now that despite challenges of my relationship with my siblings ans parents I have someone to turn to; a face a could share my thoughts my feelings and even my frustrations.
Its labor day and I have all the energy to finish everything; every reports that needs 100% compliance and even if it was totally gone the moment I talked to you, I was able to comply.
That's your power over me. I get do hyped I don't even know I have done something great.
With you telling me to be sober and to re-focus, I know that I have all the means to start over.